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September 21 SpillWhoa, it's been 3 months since I've kept silent here in PeaceAndGoodwill! I was really caught up with work and many other issues in life. TODAY, is the day that I'm gonna SPILL. I will share my heart as much as I can. Mainly due to the many emotions that I had to go through since the moment i woke up till the end of the day... love, frustration, confusion, burden, passion, hurt, doubt, unexpected, happy, joy... I can hardly contain...
Well, 20th September is my birthday. Since weeks ago, deep in my heart I felt so loved by my friends and family. I really want to thank them for every effort they made to invest and be a part of my life. Today, I am proud to celebrate my own life, a life that is so blessed by God and by people around me. Thank you...
Recently many things have changed. Life style, working environment, church etc etc etc. I felt so burdened bout the church. Personally I've never thought so much, experienced so much bout God and His word in my whole entire life until recently. Things may seem so sucky, out of control, ridiculous, but hey, God sees them as dust and we can't imagine what is His big picture, His perfect plan for us. This revelation on God's love is so strong. He is so real! And I'm praying that everyone will have their own encounter with God. Experience Him. He will take your breath away!
The best part of the day is the dramatic and unexpected, TOUCH original production of "DE PROPOSAL"!! Yes, one of my close friend has just proposed to another close friend of mine in the witness of many other close friends. Joash and May have been a blessing to all of us. Going through many moments with them, growing up together, I am very happy for them. It's my best birthday present ever. May God bless them with many richest and life will be so fulfilling and excited!
Fiuh... still got many untold emotions. I would like to share more but I think I should stop here now.. I will just try to digest and hopefully will have a good night sleep...
June 18 Reflect and RejoiceFew months ago i posted an entry writting about the things that i need to do or rather want to do...
At that moment, i was so weary about certain things, restless about some other things, bored about everything... Now, looking back and reflecting, i can see that God is good.
This was what i wrote...
6. Go to Rawang for real. Please Mrs S....., please help me, i want to graduate... and another Mrs S..., please don't read this
7. Go on a eating spree, especially sushi... for free!
8. Get good grades for my final final exams
9. Play the piano LIKE a pro... as for guitar, leave it to my brother, leave the ugly fingers to him
10. Get myself and my family to practice healthy lifestyle... including eating habit and physical activity... gosh, this is the hardest. somebody support me
Testimony:
6. Since then, i've gone to Rawang for few times and meeting really nice people. And yes, I'm gonna graduate!
7. Wow, i can't imagine how many times have i eaten sushi for free. Go and get a sister who loves sushi!!
8. Well, my final final exam was not too bad. Eventhough one not too good result, but the other was more than what i can ask for...
9. Well, not as pro as i want to be... but gonna complete PBE2 real soon. Gosh, gotta practice.
10. You can't imagine how healthy is my family now... we go green, red, purple, yellow, orange and more green! soon enough, everything will be transformed. (yes, kick my lazy bum...get up early Jac!)
PS: Sometimes we have no idea why are certain things happening while other things are not. But remember, God has the perfect timing. He knows what is best. May 08 ObsessionFor those who do not know, i enjoy listening to music, songs... bare in mind, only good music and good songs... ok, only good music and good songs that i think are good. (very very subjective, fiuh!) Well, very long time ago when i was probably 14, a friend gave me a vision that I'm actually carrying a guitar, playing and singing songs of my own and also singing songs that are made to be my own... my style, my key etc... Btw, i've kind of given up on writing songs. They are too lousy... erm, i guess the most successful song that i have ever writen is 'Jerald, Jerald, touch my *******'... or anybody's name which has 2 syllabus... yea, it was mine, not Jezreel's and what a retarded song! Bare in mind, i only compose the tune, not the lyrics...
Now. thinking back on the vision, it was indeed a very COOL thing to do... being able to sing, enjoy the music, performing... I would love to have that ability. I would love to have that gift. As i have mentioned earlier on in one of my blog, i admire girls who can play guitar. Well, my latest obsession is...
Brooke White, American Idol 7 top 5 finalist Isn't she cool? Isn't she beautiful? Well, nothing beats her because she can also do this... Both of her guitar and piano skills are perfectly well! MARVELOUS! i envy.... Well, she doesn't have the big voice, wide range, but what i really like about her is that she is a sincere person. Not pretentious. She just do what she likes, sings what she meant, performs with her best... erm, this is plainly my opinion because i don't know her... hahaha...
Brooke White performing Let it Be, her best performance Ok, Jac. Now you gotta do something for yourself. Because at this point of time, you should only have one thing in mind...
April 29 Diagnosed!!!"I will do it when I am ready."
"I don't have the mood to do it."
"I am lazy."
"I want my work to be perfect."
"There is still time."
"I can't do it. It's hard."
"I don't know where and how to start."
"It's going to consume a lot of my time."
Do the statements above sound familiar??
I was in college and picked up a brochure. The title caught my attention. Read on...and I thought that all of these are so REAL! It's like so true to my heart. Oh My Goodness, finally I've got the idea what am I actually going through... PROCRASTINATION!!!
Procrastination in Latin means "in favour for tomorrow". It is the act of putting off or avoiding tasks which need to be accomplished to the very last minute. Procrastination is often putting pleasure before pain. Frequently it leads to the feelings of stress, anxiety, self-blame, feelings of inadequacy, frustration, guilt and self-doubt.
I didn't know the simple act of procrastination can cause such a huge effect. As for me, I have been living in denial for some time, not wanting to know and face the reality. I even thought that my problem is computer/internet addiction, hooking up with unimportant stuff to free myself from duties. I simply believe that things are going to be fine, just wait and see kind of attitude...
Well, time is catching up, the dead lines are getting closer. Time to wake up and do what is right! Stop worrying it, just do it! Hope that anyone out there who has the same problem will be able to overcome it real soon... April 22 spider solitaire!!!On 22nd April Jacklyn wrote...
I'm gonna post a very no life entry....
Has anyone ever win spider solitaire?? Ya, the lifeless computer game where you play when you are very bored, have no life, brain dead, don't know what to write for assignment, before going to sleep etc... it has 3 difficulty levels: Easy: one suit, Medium: two suits and Difficult: four suits.
I have been playing this game for some time. Mind you, Level 3 which is the most difficult level which has 4 suits is IMPOSSIBLE to win! I will salute anyone who managed to solve even one of it! Medium level is not too bad, still solvable. But reading from the statistics, I still have much more loses than wins.
So if anyone thinks games like this are for good for nothing people, you are right to a certain extend. But seriously, you need a lot of patience and some intelligence in order to win the game and getting high score. So, if you have nothing better to do, maybe you want to challenge yourself to win a few games... then you can celebrate your victory with some balloons and fireworks... Before After
On 27 April...
Erm... i guess i have to salute myself cos i have just won 1 spider solitaire difficult level!!! woohoo~ after going through 97 loses, finally i got 1 win, which makes my statistics showing 1% winning rate... haha... so actually impossible is nothing! SS |
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