Jingle bombs jingle bombs jingle bombs me off~~

Christmas Day is over. I said Christmas Day is over because Christmas should be celebrated everyday. So yea, 25/12 is gone!

It has been a boring Christmas. Somehow I didn’t find it exciting. Christmas events ended on Sunday and there is no caroling so days just went on like any ordinary day. Anyway, Mikayla is beautiful, just like her mother. Shopping was fun too, I wander who is going to pay for the bills, hopefully Santa will.

I’ve been in a bad mood. There is something that I can’t express. Don’t know how to express and no word can express. I just want to be alone, but at the same time wanted to be with lots of people. I wander how it will be to stand right in the middle of a busy road. No, not to kill myself but just to feel the feeling of business. Anybody want to take a long night walk? Just kidding, I don’t want to go for a walk with ah meow or ah gau…

So what is it that is bothering me now? I guess the fact that I’m not bothering anything is bothering me. I felt defeated. Defeated by my own emotions. That is why I am babbling right here aimlessly. By the way, I’m a good actress. Some people will know why.

Now, I can’t wait to go back to college. I miss all my friends very much. I know my thesis is going down to the drain and I’m not reviving it but I have lots of faith. I know it will be fine when time comes… I think how I can help myself is to wake up. Where are my dreams? Where are my passions? I have, I really do. Wait for a while and I will be back! Back on mission possible! Please all you people out there please pray for me. I need them now. Ok thank you.